An unofficial farewell

The lack of updates. Last week had been crazy and hectic. Schedule was really packed even before I finished my last paper. All things crammed together within one week that I hope they would come one at a time to let me tackle them one by one, at least to be better at tackling them. But this is the thing. Life is never easy and can never be easy. I have only wish that all these I have gone through are going to put me at a right place. But again, life is never fair and can never be fair. There are too much things that people can achieve easily without putting much efforts and there are also a lot things that you have been trying very hard yet no matter how perseverance you are, you are just not getting there like you been hoping for.

Finally got over the FYP poster presentation. Is like finally. Barely had time to prepare for this presentation. Reason being very busy over anything and everything. A short getaway to Malacca, which initially I would really much want to cancel it. The return from the trip was a nightmare. Packing and shifting. Yea, so once again, the fate as a NTU student, even if you are a final year student. Packed and shifted to a new room at another block.

Bid farewell to my 3 year room yesterday. Frankly speaking, I really will miss the room. The view out of the window, the scenery that came into eyes every morning. Good things never last. What remained are just memories. Just hope that I won't have memory loss any sooner wtf.

  

New room is in a true mess that I don't bother to clean it up anyway. Need to re-organize everything before shifting out. This is another hu-ha as a graduated student.

Said hello to the historical state. :)

My second visit since 15 years or more ago? 

Me smiling happily with my poster. :) One year worth of works summarized in 20 minutes or so? 

And finally this really marked the ending, with the condition I pass all the subjects of course. 4 years journey finally coming to an end really soon.

It is a mixed feeling. It is indeed a very happy moment with all the school works gone, no more haunting final year project, no more sleep-sucking assignments, no more hardcore mugging period with minimal/no entertainment. But the fear of overloaded with works, the fear of failing a module, the fear of Q&A session for each assignment, are not as great as the fear for future. All these 20 years, we or to be exact me have been in the comfort zone, for a really long time. Just when the thought of bright and hopeful future comes into mind, it is often accompanied by these fear and anxiety of uncertainties, or more overwhelmed by these feeling that I started to lose faith in what the future could have beholden for me. Now that I am graduated with a certificate, what's next? It seems like a multi direction way out and there are so much to explore, yet at the same time it looks like a narrow tunnel without a single lit of light that leading to nowhere I can foresee.

At this moment, what more can I do?