I guess I would drop by to do a quick update since I am just done with the slides, I am still awake at this hour and it doesn't really help if I sleep any earlier =.=
It's really hard to juggle between school and other stuffs like blogging and etc. Hobbies die when school is in the house. Sigh! Am now rushing for the final presentation for the sem and it is the most long-prepared one. Since semester started wtf. You know my rant about the designing module haha! Now is a finale part before I can kick start on reading for final, which is in.. erm... 2weeks time? Great, start from scratch. I hope I can pass and graduate emo.
These few weeks have been really tough due to projects. Emotional up and down and been venting my frustrations and impatience to the people around me. I know I should be apologetic but I just can't help it. I didn't mean to vent my emotions like that way :( It is really difficult to work with people with different mentalities. I understand this is a process, a test and an experience. But I guess I just couldn't make a good team player sometimes. I haven't tell anyone about my most disastrous failure presentation yet. You got my words. Nothing will go any worse than having your Prof to say you presented a crap of shit in front of the whole course. :'( I tried very hard to overcome this incident. But the fact is I lose my credibility, to the Prof, to my team mate and to myself. I know it is just a school presentation and I should be glad that this does not happen in any time in future when I am working, such an "ah-Q" spirit haha!
Okie, nothing I can do about it now. It is fated for me to fall and learn to stand up again without anyone offering a helping hand. Even though the team is going to suspect my credibility in the future cooperation, even if the Prof would think that I am one of the worse students, who didn't take her project seriously (but obviously I did!), I will not allow myself to lost faith in me. I think I will try not to. :)
Alright, I ended up ranting on my emotion here. Haha! I should have handle my emotion better, as usual. Okie no more ranting here.
School is boring and I am so worry that I lose interest in studying. :( How?
Just me saying hello! This is the most decent pic of mine recently. (with less-obvious eye bags and dark eye circle and looked slightly refresh) HAHA! You know how zombie-ish I look like for the rest of the times. And my hair is long now! :D
So hungry and I wanna have mamak Maggie Goreng!! :(
Time for bed on such a rainy night ♥
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